don't you know you might find a better place to play?

It's been a long time since I updated ANYTHING on DeviantArt. I don't know why but I haven't been doing any pieces even of remote interest. I feel like I'm incapable of doing a decent piece of artwork. :[
Plus, I've been rather depressed lately. So, art isn't happening. Well, wasn't happening. I am currently doing an Alice in Wonderland piece (overdone, yes, yes, yes. we ALL know). But this isn't any wonderland. It's a completely pen and Sharpie wonderland with whipped marshmallow clouds and skanky women in short-shorts. I do love it. So far work time is 7+ hours. It's ridiculous. And massive. It must be 4 by 3 feet or something obscene. But that will probably be the most recent thing to come out from the depths of my imagination -- but it won't be for some time.
Other than that, I am just mentally unstable. I miss old friends and people I used to love with all of my dearest heart. And now, knowing they probably won't be part of my life anymore kills me. It makes me not want to wake up in the morning and to just die in my bed.

I need a job. Like crazy.
I'm sick of not having any money.
I'm supposed to babysit my cousin's little girl while she works 3-11 but she hasn't gotten a job yet. :[ Sigh.
I'm not going to continue this. I'm going to do physics homework.